邱旭泉

well, what`s been up? fooohhh.. where to start from.. hmm...

First... I just finished my practical exam(percussions) that was supposed to be for last semester`s grades(don`t ask me why now only grade... ask UM and their super efficient-ness) went pretty well i guess, except i totally screwed up my sight reading.. blergh.. i hate sight reading.. even my sight singing is better than sight reading.. but even so my sight singing also quite half past 6 already.. sighs.. well i guess i felt pretty good today even though i messed up a bit on my exam.. examiners tell me that i lack the confidence and musicality.. 

I also had my tutor class with Paul Philbert of the Malaysian Philharmonic Orchestra later on at night... And it was one of the best times i had in my entire day.. i had the most challenging but yet the most enjoyable class with him.. what happened in class.. well.. i shall just leave it as a mystery to the blogosphere world and let the matter be between him and me.. :) 

I guess that class lifted my spirits after a rough few weeks that passed.. well.. it was a rough start to the new semester... i had even more downs comparing to ups.. i even felt outcasted... I sometimes outcast myself from my friends at times...

i was complaining to Evon last night about the matter of friends.. sometimes i feel friends wont be permanent in your life.. but yet they are still permanent in your life.. in a sense that you will know them as an acquaintannce forever, but not as a true friend who can claim to be your one true friend(and please don`t tell me abt the matter of your husband or wife to be or anything else related.. that`s a whole different matter ok..) i myself am truely a great opposer of the term "BFF", short for Best Friends Forever; or as many(especially of the yellow skinned.. whoa.. racist remark.. heck.. i`m criticising my own la.. call me a racist?!?! the heck?) would use, the term "Forever friends" or in a more mushy mushy but yet broken english(as most of them would always like to phrase it that way), "forever friendship"... ever seen some group of friends pictures, say a class photo, and edited on it has the words "forever friendship".. i mean.. lol.. my gosh.. forever friendship? that`s like english in it`s total glory of brokenness.. it`s like bringing english to a new level.. the oriental level.. haha.. ;)

well.. i for one am not a fan of those.. I can testify that i HAVE used the terms before, and have regretted it.. i thought a friend of mine was my best friend when i was back in primary school.. well.. i thought wrong... when we went to secondary school(form 1 to form 5).. i thought we could be "best buddies" again.. again i thought wrong.. he somehow found another friend more interesting and became "buddies" with him.. Form 6.. well.. u guys were the best bunch of school friends i had.. no doubt.. i enjoyed every moment(though short).. i enjoyed hiking up Mount Kinabalu with you guys.. i seriously thought to myself "wow, i`ve found a very good group of friends that i can hope on and be really good friends with".. but seriously.. where are we now? i remember the last moment we all had together.. maluri kopitiam at night.. it was a saturday night as i remember i had to go home early to prepare for church the next day.. at that very moment, i thought to myself, this was it... the last of it all.. never will it be the same anymore.. not especially for me since i didn`t go to the same secondary school(form 1-5) with u all.. and now? we`ve found our own batch of friends at ouur respective places..

Evon told me(well not in these exact words) that friends will be there at that moment of your life.. but when the moment goes.. they go too.. i see much insight in that i guess seeing how much have came and left.. and i realise that these only happens in my schooling life...

does this mean i`m destined to be a loner? Well.. some one once told me a musician`s life is a very lonely life.. i guess so.. seeing how much time a musician spends with music.. now i`m not saying that me and evon wont work.. hell no!! it will.. but me and evon.. that`s a WHOLE different matter altoghether... i`m talking about friends here.. not GoodFriend.. ;) don`t get me wrong ok? 

Well.. i`m not saying it`s bad to have friends since they`re never gonna be your best friends.. noo.. friends are good.. well.. i guess i just have to be careful with how i deal about it.. 

i very much hate it also when my friends got me all figured when the dun even know that i could do backflips while sleeping.. well not that i can do backflips while sleeping... but what i`m saying here is that some friends thought they got me all figured out where they don`t actually know the true me.. kinda pisses me off you know.. especially when you get like some people talking behind your backs about the flaws you have but they forgot to add the positive ones.. i especially and i repeat, especially hate it when people put a tag on me with intent on negativity or sarcasm.. and i especially especially(whoa.. my english also went to the new level of orientness.. lol..) hate it when friends treat you so nice in front of you, and then talk bad about you at your back.. oh.. there`s also another one where if you`re an advantage, your a friend.. but when you`re a disadvantage, you`re like the most unwanted one.. i totally hate these kind of people.. especially when you have a few very common things that can be an advantage, like a car and money.. lol.. girls like to use guys for their cars... i`m not saying it doesn`t happen for guys also.. but it rarely happens..

hmm... ok... from talking abt my updates.. to talking about being outcasted.. till i go on babbling about my emo story about friendship.. lol.. i sound so uncle.. =s haha.. sidetracked a bit.. haha.. xD

well.. yea.. i guess i feel better after having class with Paul.. 

other updates? well... here`s a highlight on what will be going on for the next few months.. firstly.. next week i will be performing with the choir(dithyrambic singers) at Cempaka International School.. i have joined a wind band as a percussionist for an upcoming performance at KLPAC during august where a renown Japanese composer and arranger, Mr. Nonami, will be coming to Malaysia to lead us as a conductor and we will be performingg some of his composed and arranged songs.. On March 20th, 21st, 22nd 2009, i will be performing with the dithyrambic singers again, but now at KLPAC.. we will be having our own concert called "A Chorale Voyage".. details as below:

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A Chorale Voyage

Date: 20-22 March 2009

Venue: Kuala Lumpur Performing Arts Centre

Tickets will be sold soon. Further notice will be updated.

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then there is my university showcase.. 3rd April 2009..hoping to just wash my hands and shake my leg and not be worried about it.. i have been worried about these showcases for the past 2 sems with prominant roles... it`s time for me to have a peace of my mind..

also, for the next few months i will have to prepare for my recital hearing.. 15 minutes worth of percussions.. hmm... oh well..

that`s all for now.. stay tuned for more updates..

cheerios ;)